Ive been going to the gym nonstop for the past couple of weeks and i can see a change, its subtle but its there. Not only has this affected me physically it has changed my mentally as well. I feel more confident, more sure of myself and who i am, i know that sounds completely superficial but its just the truth. I feel as if i can conquer the world.
For the past couple of days, ive been fighting these feelings i have within me of loneliness. As happy as i currently am, i cant help but feel distraught over the lack of a mate in my life. However, with each passing day i feel it getting easier to get by, though by no means is my desire for a mate lessened, i guess its part of growing up, learning to cope that is. I used to walk around with my nose in the air, believing that i knew everything but for some reason that is no longer the case. I feel like i dont know anything and whats strange is that, i enjoy that feeling. It feels like im a child again, so ready to absorb every experience i come across and learning from it with such speed that its almost a blur. Is this what maturing is like? I hope so because if it is, i dont think i would mind it being like this. Boy, things have certainly changed within me quickly, but as my teacher says, the only thing constant in this world, is change.
